What do you want from me?

I would have thought
that that would mean something to you

especially you...
and your way of caring while not showing it so the people can't even decipher it...

but i can.
i can sense it.

and it wasnt there.

and of course the first thing you say after has to do with her.

Who am i kidding?
Who am i to think i could somehow be special?
Who am i to think i could be as good as her?
Who am i to think i have the right to go against everything ive ever taught myself?
and who am i to fall, assuming you did too.

What do you want from me?