The worst feeling in the world

is wanting to let it out
and not being able to.

I want to scream
I want to throw things
I want to call you
and spill everything
I want someone to listen
I want someone to care
I want someone to help
I JUST WANT SOMEONE.

and yet...
it's the one thing i CANT have someone with.
the ONE thing.

and so im trapped.
with nothing but a heart full of misery so bad it makes my whole body ache.
with nothing but a constant burning sensation in the back of my throat from trying not to cry.

with nothing but broken memories
and hopes and wishes
for what won't be.

wanting to let it out
and not being able to...

can there BE a worse feeling?
ever?