Confused
lost and broken
in my own mind
in my own mind
Asphyxiated
by words
words i cannot say
words i long to say
but at what cost?
I feel trapped.
backed into a corner
into the deepest niches of my mind.
Suffocating.
I hate having to hide
hide myself
hide my TRUE feelings
making other people happy before myself.
You kept me up.
for two hours
last night.
Lying there
you churning around in my thoughts.
Your face
your eyes
your touch
YOU
get out of my head!
Why can't i spit it out?
Gasping for breath
choking
against the stranglehold
on my lips.
I pry them apart
but to no avail.
"Already tied down!"
my head screams
"Give it up.
give it ALL up.
You know it's no use!
You know it will never be."
"No! I love him!"
my broken heart cries out.
"Isn't that enough?"
But which do I heed?
reason?
or impulse?
Either way, I lose
something.
Which am I more able
to lose?
I am trapped.
Why must I hide myself
from the world?
from all that i love?
from you?
words i cannot say
words i long to say
but at what cost?
I feel trapped.
backed into a corner
into the deepest niches of my mind.
Suffocating.
I hate having to hide
hide myself
hide my TRUE feelings
making other people happy before myself.
You kept me up.
for two hours
last night.
Lying there
you churning around in my thoughts.
Your face
your eyes
your touch
YOU
get out of my head!
Why can't i spit it out?
Gasping for breath
choking
against the stranglehold
on my lips.
I pry them apart
but to no avail.
"Already tied down!"
my head screams
"Give it up.
give it ALL up.
You know it's no use!
You know it will never be."
"No! I love him!"
my broken heart cries out.
"Isn't that enough?"
But which do I heed?
reason?
or impulse?
Either way, I lose
something.
Which am I more able
to lose?
I am trapped.
Why must I hide myself
from the world?
from all that i love?
from you?
3 comments:
whats going on cass? whats wrong??
you comment on my blog. i comment on yours. freaking amazing by the way. this poem, that is. sounds like something i'd write. sounds like something i'd want to write, but couldn't find the words to express myself in the best way possible. sounds like me trying not to cry.
cassidy thats like flipping shakespere hun.
amazing
as my mouth hangs open...
anyways,
haha i love you.
and im soo sorry
itll be okay.
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